Thursday, April 30, 2009

Are you there Rain? It's me, Amanda

30 days, on the dot. As I stare out my window onto the overcast Portland streets, I start to get nervous about our unprotected beach wedding. Being a native Oregonian, I love rain. Most people do not. I envision water, and satin, and sand.

My backup plan: eff backup plans. I want to get married on the beach.

I've spent this past year staying up at night worrying about napkins, and marshmallows, and garland. My teeth have been ground to nubs and the bags under my eyes might be permanent. It's not pretty.

Then I woke up the other morning and realized that I just don't care anymore. I've got a box of garlands somewhere in my apartment, a dress hanging in the closet, and a handsome man peacefully snoring away in the next room. That's all I need.

On my wedding day I'm going to get up and throw on my gown. Take a couple tequila shots. Slap on some mascara. And if it rains I will throw my arms up with delight, peer up at the sky, and jump in every puddle I encounter.

Image by James Jowers via Flickr commons

16 comments:

{amy lynn} said...

how ironic. i am in exactly the same place. 30 days..to the dot. over worrying about programs and cake and music..started to worry about rain and swine flu..

and you know what? i don't care anymore either. i am numb. it almost all seems so surreal..like it's never REALLY gonna happen..

am i gonna have a break down? or am i gonna breeze thru it..happily in love?

best wishes little lady. i hope your day is everything you dream it to be..

xo

Nicole said...

Dear Amanda, you rock!

Melissa said...

I love this! From experience rain on your wedding day isn't so bad :) I hope you enjoy the last month before your wedding :)

Megan said...

Sounds fantastic! Love your attitude.

Maggie @ Eat, Drink, Marry said...

I'm in completely the same place. Stormy skies? Awesomely dramatic photos. Rain? Looking up at the sky and laughing together. Whatevs. If you're doing a beach wedding with any other attitude, why are you having a beach wedding?

Meesha said...

That's the perfect attitude. I can't wait for Saturday :)!

Jenny.Lee said...

You are awesome.

PDX Bride said...

Spoken like a true Oregonian!!

Kate said...

Amen, sister. I'm reminded of David Sedaris's brother Rooster's "F***-it bucket" where when life gets you down you just say F*** it and eat yourself some candy. I've definitely gotten to that point in the planning.

Bridechka said...

I heart rain too but I think its because its a Russian superstition that when it rains when your going some place that means that your going to have a great time there :)

J.BRIDE said...

yea! eff the backup plan! things will unfold the way they are supposed to...and no matter what, at the end of the day you'll be married

Farah said...

hey, hang in there! just relax and try to enjoy what the day brings. it is your day after all ;)

Cyd said...

Girl I am so with you! eff backup plans! This option sounds like so much more fun.

alissa said...

booyah! i love your attitude. my one year anniversary is coming up in a few weeks and all of that little stuff you stress about? cant remember any of it anymore. i remember the moments that i though 'oh f it' and just enjoyed myself :)

Julia said...

amen to that!!!!

Peonies and Polaroids said...

eff back up plans indeed! We didn't have one (and our wedding was only a mild shambles)

Oh how I love the beach in the rain.